3.20.2006

So you had a bad day

please excuse my last post. I was having a realllllly bad day yesterday and for NO apparent reason at that. Some friends and I went to Wild Wings yesterday for a little mom's day out deal. We were there from 1230-200 and I hate to tell you, but I don't remember much of the conversation! I was so out of it yesterday b/c before I left the house I had a KILLER headache. So I took two Midols to knock it out....and quick (that's the only thing that really works for me...) but the hitch is, Midol makes me hyper and jittery and OUT of it. I don't know WHY I took TWO of them!! I do remember talking about hair and movies. that's about it. so I left there and went to Home Depot because I needed 10 more bricks for my flower bed. Wouldn't you know it, there were only NINE left. I am not kidding you. GRRRR. Then to make matters worse, this nosey old man and his cocky looking teenage son were loading up some bricks right below me (same color, same pattern, DIFFERENT shape, mine were curved, his were STRAIGHT!). When I got to the checkout counter I asked the woman when they would be getting a new shipment in because I need ONE more, when that man came up behind me and said "Ms I think you overlooked the HUNDREDS of those bricks that were right below you." Now, usually I wouldn't be so snippy, but I was already irritated that there were only nine of my bricks left and this man had the gall to talk to me like I was some poor stupid blonde girl who didn't know A from Z. So I said, ever so politely, "Sir, if you look at your bricks and my bricks, you will see that mine are CURVED and yours are STRAIGHT. If you can find me ONE curved brick in all of those HUNDREDS of straight bricks, I'd pay you to shop for me." I pulled out of that parking lot feeling like a heel. ARGHHH. Well, I am a glutton for punishment, so instead of heading homeI ran by KFC to pick up some chicken for B and the kids. I pulled in the drive through and placed my order, waited a good 15 minutes in line, and when I got to the window the cashier told me they don't accept debit cards. (i never carry cash).ARGHH (again!) So I told HER, "Well, maybe you should think of putting a note on the sign saying you DON'T before someone waits 15 minutes in line, just to hear SORRY, YOU CAN'T EAT! Mad and tired and headache coming back full force, I went to Bi-Lo and got a bag of chicken and a box of mac and cheese and took my bum home. I added some mashed potatoes and gravy to the mix and called the family to the table. And wouldn't you know it, no one liked the chicken.

3.19.2006

moody

ever have a day that just can't go right, no matter what you do? when everything and everyone rubs you the wrong way and all you want to do is crawl in your OWN little PERSONAL hole and stay there until your funk is over? when you have zero patience and even LESS tolerance for the most mundane things? ahhh, you guessed it, I am having one of THOSE days 2day. i need a lonnnnnnnnnnnng hot bath, door locked, NO LIGHTS ON and just SIT. in QUIET. i'd settle for TEN minutes!!!! ARGHHHH. i wish there were some magic pill that could just TAKE me O-U-T for a nice little lilac filled walk

3.11.2006

mmbop

*u have so many relationships in life, only one or two will last. you go through all the pain and strife, you turn your back and it's gone so fast. it's gone too fast. so hold on to the ones who really care, in the end they'll be the only ones there. when you get old and start losing hair, can you tell me who will still.....care??? plant a seed, plant a flower, plant a rose. plant any one of those, keep planting to find out which one grows...it's a secret no one knows.....*

ok, call me a cheeseball, butIstill enjoy listening to this song. It's simple, but Ising it to myself everytime something goes wrong in my life. Funny how relationships are like the flowers in a garden.....Today I was showing a friend some flower's that are coming up in my garden.I have tulip bulbs that are prob on their last year and I'll have to replace them next spring. I have some pretty (sometimes pesky) lillies that come back every year and bring new ones with them, andI have some dead spots where I planted impatiens and the frost killed them, so now I need to fill in the empty space.I have two holly bushes that stay green and seem as if there are ALWAYS small red berries all over them. I have 2 gardenias that blossom and are soooo pretty for about a month then the flowers start to brown and turn to seed and fill w/ small bugs.
My flowers are like the relationships in my life. There are old friends that once upon a time shared a good piece of my life and my heart, but like the pretty little impatiens, when life got in the way, we simply drifted apart. When I see them now, we simply smile in passing. Ihave old friends who come and go in and out my life like the tulip. They pop up unexpectedly, bloom very quickly, and before you know it, POOF they're gone until next year. I have a lot of lillies in my life. These are the friends that I add everyday....sometimes they stick around and leave bits of themselves around to pop back up day after day. They are beautiful and fresh when in bloom, but more often than not, seem to wilt and fade before I even remember to take a picture...and don't we all have gardenia's? you know, the *friends* who start out great but then something goes wrong and ewww, you are stuck with a bush full of ugly rotting flowers. Then I have the lovely holly friends who are always there...they come with their own set of prickly leaves, but they also come with the most vibrant of personalities that make my life better and brighter because they are there and they are constant. I have my family....that tall oak tree standing off somewhere in the background....you know the tree I am talking about. The ones' whose roots are deep and firmly planted and it would take the strongest of God's winds to stir them.The one that no matter how long you are away, when you come back, it always feels just the same. The tree that is the stronghold in my life.......

I love this garden of life and I am in constant wonder at the beautiful realtionships that I have in it! Sometimes it's almost too much to wrap my mind around, how certain people come into our lives and make it so much better and others are there for just a short while just to teach you a lesson.

This blog is for a very special friend of mine.....I am so blessed to have come across you! You, who listens and puts up w/ my endless chatter....she's a beautiful trumpet vine that has wrapped herself around my tall oak tree...I hope to carry a piece of you with me where ever life may take us