random thought

I am known for weird thoughts, aimless brain rambling.....not due to too much time on my hands.....but something I do to occupy my head when I am doing the mundane.

Tonight as I was loading the washer, Brooke asked me if I were given one wish, would I wish my world could start over. Random question from such a small child, I know.....but she quickly followed her question by her own answer....she told me that she would start hers all over just so she could see her grandma and remember her.....which gave me the answer to my immediate question, "WHY the heck was my daughter already wishing she could start all over!?" HA!

Naturally, there are a lot of things in my life that I wish I could do over again. Like many others, I wish I could go back to then knowing what I know NOW. The true irony of life is that we don't come with built in navigation systems. Each day is a mystery that presents us with another obstacle to manuveur around. In almost a chuckle from the universe, we are born and turned loose to figure it out.....and since we only get one chance......

While my mind was playing on this thought.....I wondered if we were ALL granted one wish, and used it all to start over again, knowing what we do now....would we get it right or are we bound, as HUMANS, to get it all wrong again...only to end up wishing, AGAIN, that we could do it all again?

Would everyone "get it right"? Would the world really be a better place because of it? Or would we be a new birthed Stepford world.....one in which we knod to each other in the mornings, go about doing the Necessities of life, keeping our homes and lives in order....never letting anyone get too close to mess up our ideal perfection? Exactly what kind of world would we live in if we all came equipped with the "I know then what I know now" chip? Is it one that I would REALLY want to live in? Would there BE any mystery..any pure fun?

Imagine if our kids came with a handbook......the mysterious journey of their childhood wrapped up in a tidy box? Would I really find joy in not being able to mess up, learn, try again....and get it right? Would I find any joy in the moment that Bub finally started pronouncing his "L's" if I already KNEW when he was going to start? Would I find any wonder in watching Brooke take off on her bicycle if I already knew WHEN she was going to do it?

As she often does, Brooke gave me a lot to think about tonight.....

So in answer to my little fairy......who tends to drop little glitter dust of the wonderment I call childhood innocence into my life when I hardly expect it....no baby, mommy wouldn't press the rewind button and change one thing. Because if I did, I couldn't promise you that I would be the mommy I am today....